My Moment with Turning 60

I survived my 60th birthday this past Sunday.  I have talked alot about turning 60 and getting older and blah, blah, blah.  So when it was actually here it passed rather peacefully.  I had a wonderful adventure in Yellowstone.  My daughters, son-in-law and granddaughter made dinner and a wonderful cake.  Fancy candles were put on the cake (ok, not sixty of them, you want to burn the house down?) but enough to make it pretty.  So it was a good day. 

I think the reason I kind of dreaded turning the big 60 was a few factors.  One, you realize your life really is mostly over.  Two, my dad died in his early 60s and my brother died one month after he turned 60.  Those thoughts, I am sure, were somewhere in the back of my mind.  Three, you just don't feel like you used to or look like you used too.  I wanted to wake-up on my birthday and have great wisdom.  You know, the kind of wisdom you thought your grandma had.  Granted, life has given me some insights and I would say wisdom.  But, I am not Solomon.  I still have many immature moments and doubts.  I do know lots and lots of stuff but it is muddled in my head in a way that I just can't always pull it out very eloquently or timely.  Sometimes I feel as dumb as I was at 19 or 20.  But, the good thing is - I know I am acting dumb where at 19-20 I didn't.  I thought I was, shall we say, cool. 

Don't get my wrong, I love my life.  I have a husband who loves me even though I can be pretty hard to live with.  I have great children and grand kids.  I love see them working at life and raising their kids and so happy that I can be a part of it for awhile. 

So on my birthday when I was pondering for a few moments in the commode, my granddaughter, Abby came in.  She has done this quite often.  Our door doesn't lock so I am not always surprised by her entrance.  She brought the card that she had given me.  It played the Charley Brown theme and had Snoopy dancing on the front.  She said Gamma - I dance for you like Snoopy.  So she got her little feet going and held the card open so it would play the music.  Then she said, Gamma, you can dance too, with me.  I told her I just couldn't at the moment and she smiled at me and said, oh Gamma, it's because you are so old.  Yup, summed it up pretty good.  Thanks Abby.